Sorry is not enough for this Apology

I overdo everything. And I am responsible for all of it. It took me a while to grasp everything infront of me. Surprisingly, never did see. I’m unprepared and my shield was nowhere to be found and I am open to any offense. My one and only weapon was there to be revealed, the weapon I never have intended to show to anyone, for they will know my weakness, my limitation, my Achilles heel.


But I have nothing else to choose for. It is either to reveal it, or everything in me would be destroyed, I obliterated my own being. But I have not fully ruined my gates, cause if that would actually happen, I would be the astray, the adversary of myself, the negative of everything I put up.


For sometimes, I made decisions, an urgent one. For I haven’t seen it coming, I thought it was an obligation to put things up, but in this situation, I did it willingly, for my attacker is someone to trust to. Yes, even though I put him in much concession, he hold up and put it behind, until everything seemed to be full, he eventually throw the arrow, right through my face. But I guess, I made him feel that way.


Then, I took action to put things straight. It was all of an agreement, both sides benefited I guess. But it made through tough misunderstanding and I took the courage to finally settle it. Cause I don’t want anyone to be affected to anything that I can do if ever I was crushed by my own boomerang, missed and hit me as it goes back.


“Never compromise yourself. You’re the only one you have”. But things just got to be kidding here. It is normal for every person to take part of his instincts and hold on to it. But I never did, no pride at all, I believed everything said, for those words are to be trusted. I never know, but I have to.


I have nothing to hold now. I have opened everything, and deciding for it and answering a yes, means breaking my own pride and self-confidence. I can never blame anyone about this but myself, for I made all the mistakes at first.


So I am here, saying sorry to everyone for everything that I have done. I would say I have broken everything about myself in your perception, and I have broken a part in you. I’m really sorry for everything and thank you for understanding.